Apologies

[Powermoose]

Okay everyone... First off, _I'D_ like to apologize to all of you. For all the OOC dust I stirred up with some of Duren's actions.
Next, I'd like to tell you all: It's just not fun anymore. My mother always used to tell me "All things in moderation". This ISN'T moderation. I know, it's interesting to play disgust, and anger. But in the sheer numbers I have received it in...
I'm sorry, but I'm not emotionally prepared to deal with that sort-of thing. I just got taken off my Anti-Depressants and Anxiety Medication. When I read some of the post in response to Duren's apologies... I physically threw up. Yes, it seems silly, but I feel TERRIBLE when I feel like my peers don't approve of me. And you guys are my peers. As much fun as you guys are having RPing this, I'm not. I can't think of a single thing I could do to make it any better... I'd ask to pretend it didn't happen, but that would be minorly unfair. I'll do my best to RP it. But if it gets much worse, I'm going to stop. Like I said, It's just not fun anymore.
I'm sorry guys... Sorry to ruin some of your RPing... Sorry for all the dust I spelled out, But emotionally and mentally, I'm not prepared to be hated by the entire castle over something that it seems like the Queen approves of. So... Just please lay off a little.

Thanks with lots of hope,
Duren

[Atama]

I feel similar to Duren. The conflict over Zero's leaving the Watch was cool, and fun. But this junk about sex scandals, and who's been cheating on who, and don't judge me for what I want to do in bed... it's kind of sick OOC. I don't blame Duren outright, I don't think he had any idea where it would lead or it wouldn't bother him so much. But I don't enjoy playing in this castle quite so much either.

I think some kinds of conflict are great. Others suck, even when they're purely IC (Duren and I get along fine OOC, BTW).

[Myrth]

Yup it's gotten pretty bad... none of the characters know what's going on.. but they're going to be ticked off reguardless...

It's horrid... I'm beginning to feel like I'm playing a part in one of those daily dramas on T.V.!

Maybe play a plot that furthers the characters along.. rather than bashing them down.

My 2 cents... -Kiarynn

[Addreama]

i sent you icq's duren sweety
you understand i hope my responce was IC, and i explained my ooc feelings to you
no one means to make you feel sick or bad, and i am sorry if i added to it by what was posted in character..
But all of us know that when you role play things, your characters will deal with the consequences..whether it be sexually, honor or whatnot..that is part of role playing guys.if you can't handle reactions like that then make sure you keep your characters away from such provocative things.Zero..i feel for the mess you are in..and Duren i don't think what you wanted was wrong per say..just the way things went made some of the stuff look definately tacky. I as a player have made the concious decision to not join the watch because i don't want addreama in that role for life and she don't want to have the duellists mad at her,,since she likes alot of them http://www.skotos.net/ubb/wink.gifShe pushes the envelope with flirting,but hey..she is a flirty type and knows when to back off.
this is why we have to think carefully the goals we are setting for ourselves as characters..just bumbling along will lead to some uncomfortable situations like this.
i wish i had answers to help you all, but all we can do is play the game out..and try to fix things we did wrong in the eyes of the characters we must interact with. i am sure the day will come when addreama goofs majorly..then she will have to deal with the costs as well. HUGS to you Zero and Duren..and all the others swimming in the messes we made for ourselves..
but for now..it's game time and Addreama has to go see what trouble she can cook up. http://www.skotos.net/ubb/smile.gif

[cedric]

Well, every reaction that Cedric has had has been in purely IC form. While I think OOC'ly that this is a pretty bizarre position to be in, it certainly causes me no RL anger.

IC'ly, usually when people die and come back they have little or no memory of what happened. As long as it doesn't repeat, it is safe to assume that whatever they did right before dying was a culmination of circumstances, and that since circumstances are different, they are unlikely to repeat whatever it was.

So, I was ready to play Cedric as warily forgiving when you came back (as I knew you would). But you had him come back with full memories, which blew that line of thinking out of the water.

In a place as small as the castle, it's difficult to convincingly play an ongoing anger because any two characters are going to be in the same room whenever that where the fun stuff is happening. So I'll keep trying to find ways for Cedric to tolerate Duren.

But, for Cedric to suddenly decide that everything is hunkydory would be ridiculous. So he's going to be very annoyed at you for a while. He's not demonizing you, he's just mad.

So, please don't take all this into RL, because it's only happening in CM. I know how easy it is to take the stuff seriously - Diana and I RP'd our entire breakup scene. It was very sad, and by the end a tear had come to my eye IRL, which usually doesn't even happen to me when I watch a good but sad movie. But if it's making you throw up, and if it makes you want to return to anti-depressant medication, then you may want to rethink why you want to be here. If you want a cheerier character, you could make Duren mysteriously disappear and be replaced by somebody less serious.

In any case, know that it's all IC and that the players behind the other characters aren't all against you.

Cedric

[Monkey]

Powermoose writes:

Yes, it seems silly, but I feel TERRIBLE when I feel like my peers don't approve of me. And you guys are my peers.

Powermoose, I think you are a little too close to your character and the game.

Philo and I are two completely different entities. He's horrifed by allusions to other people's sex-lives. The real me, on the other hand, is a very different creature (I bet if I wanted, I could make many of you blush).

Philo doesn't approve of Duren. Never has, and probably never will. This has absolutely no bearing on what I think of you as a real person. If you want to know that, just ask, and you and I can have an OOC talk sometime.

Philo is not my alter-ego. His opinions do not reflect my opinions. He is a character I thought up to tell interesting stories about.

--Monkey

[Powermoose]

Well Cedric... Duren didn't come back with full memories. In fact, he didn't even know who he was. Then Lobo did what I call a 'flash memory' session. So Duren's got some of his memory back... Causing him a great deal of stress... And Monkey, your darn right I'm too close to my character... He's the side of me I WISH I could bring out more. Blend with the real me and be a complete person. And Addreama... Your right... I should have planned better... Frankly this whole thing threw me off MY balance... I don't WANT a more cheerful character... Duren is very cheerful... When he wants to be... And I like Duren's randomness... And I know, if I'm not ready to handle this, I probably should be playing... But I LOVE this game... It's hard not to... I was never expecting this... And if you knew the truth Hannah, Zero and I came up with OOC, you'd laugh your rear ends off... But we've come up with a better solution... Praying it solves!!

Duren

[cedric]

Originally posted by Powermoose:
But we've come up with a better solution... Praying it solves!!

I've seen the solution. Pretty funny. Kinda reaching, and pretty far-fetched, but funny, and it works - kinda.

So, just to keep you from thinking Cedric's still demonizing you, I'll say it here: Cedric will eventually buy it, because the player behind him wants to drop the whole thing. But he's going to be awfully skeptical for a while.

However, going around telling everybody the whole story isn't the way to get it behind you. I'd suggest letting it drop now, and RP'ing it only when others bring it up. That way, it fades into obscurity sooner.